Devotional E.G.

Summary statements and my take on them:
To know and do the will of god, I must deny self and return to a God-centered life. That's a tough one ... denying self is hard just by nature 'cause I'm COMPLETELY selfish and self-centered. God is working these qualities out ... definitely not overnite.

I must reorient my life to God. I pretty much knew this when I rededicated my life to Christ. I am waiting on Him right now and that's not an easy one ... I am in my 2nd month of re-entry and I ain't looking for a job and I sometimes feel like a bum. I finally talked with CR today and told him that I wasn't looking for a job ... He asked me if I planned to work here again ... and I said that's where I believe God is leading me but, I am not counting my proverbial chickens before their hatched ... I told him that I wanna wait until the my 6 month committment is up before I look for a job or come back on. Waiting is not one of my strong points ... which kinda leads me to my next summary statement.

I must focus my life on God's purposes not my own plans. Just exactly what are God's purposes for my life ? ... ATM I feel that I may be working back at TC again but, I'm still unsure. When I was in Cape I thought for sure that I was gonna do the STP. That fell apart and I was lost for a minute until I got the letter from CR saying that the "door" was open for re-entry. Since the "cat" is outta the bag about me not looking for a job, I am able to seek Him for guidance and direction. I am pretty sure it's not a "secular" job ... at least at this moment in time that is ...

I must seek to see from God's perspective rather than from my own distorted human perspective. This one is pretty much self explanatory and I understand it. The real test is actually doing it.
I must wait until God Shows me what He is about to do through me. And here we go with waiting thing again ! Here's where I am not such a good "sport". It's pretty much in my nature to get things when I want them. I am "learning" to wait. Lemme get back to you on this one ... heh heh heh !!!

I will watch to see what God is doing around me and join Him. I am and will continue to watch what He is doing. When I just stand back and let the Holy Spirit do His job ... I'm amazed ! I can't make guys change ... I can only be an example and point them in the right direction. God is doing great things through me already by letting me be involved in mentoring guys from my backround.