Wondering ... Just Wondering ?

I have been thinking alot lately ... God ... just exactly do you have in store for me ? That is a touchy thing for me to think about sometimes. Why ? ... I have technically been back in full-time ministry since August 26th, 2006. I made a commitment of 2 years. Sometimes I think I made a mistake. Then, I sit in His presence for a while and all that negativity just dissipates. I know that as Christians we are supposed to be selfless. When I am in tune with His voice I guess I have a selfish motive for staying. I know that I will have a greater impact for Christ working at Teen Challenge that if I'd be working a secular job. We all know the phrase "It's hard to soar with the eagles when you work with the turkeys." I sometimes feel like I am babysitting. I guess I know how the boss feels about all of us then. I can only imagine how foolish I must have been when I worked here in 92-96. If I've learned one thing it's this: Find your satisfaction in the Lord ! If you are looking to please anyone but Him, You will end up disappointed. I guess He is showing me how I used to be ... a people -pleaser. Now I may be a 'bit too far to the left ! ... Most of the time ... I could care less. Sometimes I'd like to snap ... but I am able to hold my tongue ... Thank You Jesus !

God What are you doing with me ? ... I believe ... help thou mine unbelief !
Thank you for being patient with me and using me ... in spite of me !