Ministry ? ....

... or what ? ... Sometimes I'm absolutely positive about being here. Is here just here in Milwaukee or is it here at Teen challenge. Most of the time I can't stand it here. To me that just isn't very fulfilling if I am not happy the majority of the time. Why do I struggle so much ? I realize that I'm selfish. Everyone is selfish to a degree. Why is it so hard for me to find at least some kind of happiness/contentment doing what I'm doing ? Why do I feel obligated to be here ? Should I feel obligated ? What will happen if I go back to a secular job ? I shouldn't fear anything but God. Won't God be happy with me as long as I'm serving Him ? I'm confused, mad and very irritable right now. I looked at milwaukeejobs.com and it was loaded with positions I could fill. Mark 9:24 sums it up for me right now. Lord I believe, help thou mine unbelief.