Speaking Engagement

Today I was able to share my testimony and talk a bit about Teen Challenge at the West County Assembly Of God Business Men Luncheon. CR was supposed to take me but this morning he said "You're on your own". I actually felt comfortable up there ... go figure ? ... As He grooms me for my future I guess I need to lean on Him more and more. I still at times wonder ... why me God ? I'm sure Moses asked himself the same question. I just need to be content with the plan He has and not get caught up in my corrupt plans. I have difficulty drawing the line between the two.
The story Ed told last nite about the list of plans made me wonder ... what exactly am I responsible for ? ... What part do I play ? Is simple obedience it ? ... or do I play an active role ? I am kinda confused about the wife thing. Am I just to sit by and let God work or do I do anything at all ? Should I ask her out ? ... Sit by her at church ? ... what ? ... I feel like a 15 year old kid. When I think about how He's been moving in the last 2 years ... I guess I should just be patient and develop a relationship.