Gripe Session

I don't really complain much so I'm not going to start where the eyes of the world could be on me. On Fridays it is my day to clean the staff apartment. I don't want to finish the night at Celebrate Recovery on a bad note so I do it on Saturday morning. Last Saturday the battery on my mp3 player was dead so I didn't have the usual christian music in the backround. I dealt with the same feelings which were of course ... anger. I got myself going on the pity party and started complaining to God. I asked if this is what my life has amounted to and complained some more. I whined for a good half an hour or so and then I told God angrily that no-one really appreciates what I do in this apartment so why should I continue doing a good job of cleaning ... I even went so far as to tell Him that I'm tired of slaving for inconsiderate and selfish reentry and staff. I then heard the still small voice of the Holy Spirit ... No-One Appreciates what I did on the cross 2000 years ago either.
I quit.
I still have to deal with the anger part though ... I know God will give me the strength to get through. I want to run ... but to what ? ... another secular job or another failed business venture ? ... as much as I don't like to admit ... I really enjoy what I do. Teaching, training and fixing. If I look at things spiritually ... I am still in the construction business ... I am building into the lives of men. When I think of things like that ... then it's all good.
CR was right when he said "Dealing with students is the easy part ... staff and other re-entry on the other hand is the challenging part."