Tuesday Schmoozeday Part Deaux

Well, it's a bit later and I just talked to a friend of mine who's happy to know what I'm doing. I was encouraged to hear that God is tugging at her heartstrings. I hope and pray that I will say the right words to her and be a good influence for once in my life. All she's ever known me as is a filthy drunk and drug addict. She knows where I was and what I left when I left full time ministry. She's happy that I am no longer playing the Jonah game. God give me the words to be a light for your glory.

The Experiencing god workbook that I'm doing just took a turn for the worse ... or as I wrote down in the book last night ... I'd like to burn the stinking book ... Lemme elaborate a bit ... One of the summarry statements said "If you aren't hearing God speak ... You are hurting at the basic love relationship with Him". NOTHING bothers me more than a guy who's been preaching for 40 or so years and has "hindsight" to relate all this knowlege to. I dunno ... maybe he's got something there ? ... Well, yesterday I started getting up at 4:30 to start prayer by 5.

Lord I believe, help thou mine unbelief

I guess I just get discouraged when I do the right things ... and the wicked prosper. I get so dayum mad when I look at the circumstances around me. Sometimes I feel that my faith is as small as a mustard seed ? ...