Moving

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Twisted

I posted this a while ago. Feelings/Emotions.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aYtw11qBzNY
i don’t make everyone happy…..but it’s ok….it’s ok i’ve been through this before it’s nothing new…nothing new i don’t know why every time i wanna fly somebody always tries to hold me down….hold me down…i’m losing my faith every single time…i try no one is on my side don’t let me drown…let me drown
don’t worry about whatcha done now cause it’s ok…it’s ok...yeah, yeah it’s a test to see how much you can take…it’s nothin new…i don’t know why every time i wanna fly somebody always triesto hold me down….hold me down…i’m losing my faith every single time…i try no one is on my side don’t let me drown…let me drown i am drowning…i am sinking….yeah
i am drowning…i am sinking….yeah why won’t someone help me why won’t someone help me.
the psyche wants to believe the lie, while the spirit wants to hear Obsession by David Crowder
The inner struggle famishes me.

Lord I believe, help thou mine unbelief

Back On Track

For those that are concerned ... I am officially back online. I am also back to work. Back to the grind of flooring. It has been approximately 2 weeks and my body is sore as heck. After sitting behind a desk for better than a year ... my body is finally getting acclimated to physical labor. Since I have been back to work I have just been too tired to go to the library to get internet access. Today I bought a Cricket phone and their broadband service. Not a bad deal either. I get unlimited phone and broadband for 70 bucks a month.

Alive-N-Kicking

After a brief hiatus from blogging ... I am back. None the worse either. The job search is depressing right now. I have sent out at lest 50 resumes with only 1 interview and 1 call. This is quite strange to me ... not working and all.
I should be moving into my new apartment in a few weeks.
The condemnation sometimes gets frustrating. Another restoration is not in the plan. At 44 I have decided to face my situation head first. The journey may be long but God is with me all the way.

Worship Experience ...

... was last nite and it was wonderful! Kevin called me earlier in the day an asked if he could borrow my ear. Of course I said yes. I got there about 5:30. The worship team was Kevin, John, Matt and Aaron. They did great. Justin did the powerpoint and I ran sound. I am thankful for the church family that I have. It was nice to see Tom and his wife. I talked to (pastor) Tom for a minute. He asked how the job hunt is going.

Unemployment Time

I am unemployed and employed at the same time ... go figure. I am on-call for one more week at TC. Jayme has a list of stuff for me over at the womens center. I will go ever there tomorrow morning. I got hired at a local snow removal company. I am on-call there too. I am praying for a on-site maintenance position at a local real estate company. That would really smooth out the rough edges right now.

My God shall supply all your needs according to His glorious riches in Christ Jesus.

Ch ch ch ch ch ch ch Changes ...

... on friday january the sixteenth I got a call to meet Judy at El Greco's. I had this distinct feeling that something bad was gonna happen. Inwardly I knew that I was going to be released from my job. I got to her office after waiting at El Greco's for 10 minutes. She told me that they were accepting my verbal resignation. I told her that I did not officially resign and she looked at me funny and scribbled some notes on her notepad. We started going over COBRA details and the like. I guess that I am finally getting my wish. For the most part ... I have not liked my employer from the get-go. I love what I did and excelled at it. I was able to take a pretty messed-up business and turn it into a completely legitimate and law abiding business.
The words of one of my favorite Keith Green songs resound clear as a bell ... "and if you've been burned here's what I've learned ... the Lord's not the one to blame." Despite all my confusion I still believe that God is in control. There can be many things learned here. I need to remain positive.
I will never leave you or forsake you.